As faith would have it...

Do you know how it feels like to know all your features without being able to touch you?
Or not to quit smoking because I'm waiting for the moment we'd share a cigarette together along with some wine and a hug?
How every guy that wants me sickens me because he's not you?
Have you ever sacrificed your last moments before you fell asleep to think of me or spent the first thoughts of a fresh morning wondering how I've slept?
Have you thought of moving to another time or place out of love?
Do you ever feel you'd breathe in vain if I'd die tomorrow?
Or do you feel anxious if you ever get to spend more than two days without hearing from me?
Am I the first person you call when you're happy or when you're sad?
Am I the last person you'd ever want to hurt?
Did you ever fantasize about our future together? Did you ever wonder how it would be like?
How our kids would look like? How we'd look like together when we're grey and old?
How my hair would feel on your skin?
How your fingers would feel as they would be touching my face?
And how your lips would feel on mine?
Have you ever wondered how my shoulders smell like in the summer?
Or how I like to drink my coffee in the morning?
Ever thought your life is cursed with impossible desires?


As faith would have it... I did. So many times I did. And I still do. But I'm still addicted to you.